not too long ago i found myself trying to make space in the world for my music in ways that are unnatural. by this i mean flooding a forum with spam posts (we've all seen it plenty of times, definitely not just here on DSF), using friend adding machines on myspace, taking every gig that gets thrown at you, passing your tunes to anyone and everyone (including people who don't want them!), etc.. i'm sure we've all been guilty of this kind of stuff at some point. so, you go on like this, sooner rather than later realize that you're not getting the response that you wanted, and some people stop altogether. they decide the world just isn't ready for their sound, or whatever else that allows them to stop trying. some people keep at it, and end up with hundreds of thousands of plays that should be a concrete measure of success for them, but i find more often than not that even with all the profile views in the world they eventually realize that it's not actually what they were looking for. so they move away from that, and let off on the promo button. they go into the studio and work on their craft because it's what they love, they play a gig and come prepared and professional. and there's no artificial hype. everything is still, but at some point, you know something has to happen, whatever that might be. many of us hope to be "discovered", to get that tectonic single, that deep medi stamp of approval, to be on the pirates and to be able to look at it all and say, "look what i've accomplished through all my hard work. it really did pay off." but the fact of the matter is that some of us will work very, very hard for a very, very long time, and we'll have the chops, we'll have the style, we'll have the ideas, but there still just won't be space for us. so did we waste our time?
what im trying to get at here is that there can't always be an external reward for our dilligence. it's just not possible, and i think many of the people here are already very aware of that, even if only subconsciously. so what i want to know is this: what is really at the heart of it all for YOU? what makes you wake up every single morning (or afternoon for some of us eh?), sit down at your computer, and bang out another tune that will probably never see the light of day? where is the source of the energy that keeps you going? what about this whole thing is so satisfying in and of itself that it gives you the patience you need to walk the walk? and, possibly more importantly, what do YOU need to do to keep that thing alive and vibrant?
i think many of you will find the answer is very obvious, even if you hadn't considered it before
