Funny you should say this because on Thursday of last week I went to a spiritual meeting in the park.test recordings wrote:It sounds like you need someone to give you lifestyle advice more than therapy for a major problem, go talk to some religious people... Buddhists might be the easiest because they've got no religous dogma going on that you'd need to subscribe to to be 'accepted'. One of the best things I ever learned that helped me relax and think straight was Raja Yoga at a Brahma Kumaris, they told you the accompanying Hindu philosophy but you didn't need to believe it explicitly and I've got quite a few Hindu mates anyway so I know vaguely how it works, I haven't really given it much thought in that respect. I've been meaning to go down to a Buddhist centre in Leeds and now I have the time I think I'll go down this week...
Not knowing what to expect I decided to put any preconceptions aside and see what it was all about. I actually found it very enlightening, it was nice to be outside and around positive people with a different outlook on life. I took away from it what I thought was relevant to me and have been researching some of the meditation and yoga techniques further.
I have increased the amount of exercise I do and have also started eating healthier. Ive cut snacks and sugary drinks replacing them with nuts and fruit. I'm also spending a lot less time on the internet, and any usage is usually researching things that may give me a better life.
I have only had one spliff since which i put off for as long as possible but since it was the end of a very productive day I thought it wouldn't hurt. It was nice but I didn't get to sleep until 4am that day and woke up feeling a bit groggy so don't think I will be doing that again too soon. My sleeping habits are still bad regardless, I'm still having trouble switching off at night even with meditation.
Might seem like I'm going a bit over the top to some but I don't care because overall I've been feeling much happier since I posted this topic, mostly by simply thinking more positively and being more determined to motivate myself. I have faith it will only continue to get better.