dubluke wrote:Used to frequently go out and take between 0.75g - 1g - it would take that feeling of your head nearly splitting in two from feeling so amazing that step further, but I found the negative effects would kick in waaaay more after that! Much more forgetting what I'm talking about half the time, way more nausea etc. even when it was quite good stuff and the physical effects of comedown would be fucking terrible. On the half g instead I've done recently I've still had an amazing time but it's been a bit more under control and also I've remembered more of the night which is always important!
without turning it into a 'omg this one time i was SO fucked' kinda thing. ive been on sessions where throughout a couple of days i've done multiple grams of mandy to the point where i've been sat on the park from the night before with mates, and i've took out the bag of what used to be a half ounce and we just been throwing keys up each others noses, from 9am till 11pm and then carried on still at someones house
the weird thing is that afterwards i've actually remembered most of whats happened [unfortunately] and after an immense, endless sleep on my mates beanbag (19 hours i think i worked it out as) i felt totally fine
i've also been out and done one pill and drank a bit and not remembered anything and woke up with blood on my jacket/hands and a horrible feeling something terrible had happened but not sure what it was and have felt suicidal for a week
its just what happens at the time and how you and your mind and your body all co-react with the situations you're in
i cant help but feeling that earlier sessions i've had when i was younger have set maybe some sort of standard for behaviour and emotions that i feel now though
its a weird one, i've tried to find a formula for guaranteed success everytime and it just doesn't work out like that!
take it as it comes and ride it out is just what i try and do now
