IDK, if gone for good, but at this time in life, we're checking out possibilities with other people.
I'm holding out for Chan Marshall

anyway, CAT POWER makes me purrrr'.
It's been challenging lately connecting with other women,
no one's really caught my attention the same way, sparks flying and all that.
I'm starting to realize that my Bi-Polar, mental health condition really effects me emotionally. Women pick up on that.
Manic episodes aside there is also delusions and mood swings, it's a tall order for a women to oblige, it's like I come with an emotionally distressed signal. Why would anyone willingly want to go out with someone who naturally feels awkward, IDK, sometimes I think my whole disposition in life is effected by the fact that I have a disabled sibling, (My brother has FG-Syndrome) So in relationships, I do seek a partner to care and be cared for, but there is this feeling of unworthiness I fall victim to. Like I'm never good enough for anything, no matter how right it is, I just feel like I don't deserve to feel truly loved. Sort of a "why would anyone love me, I'm such a fucking screw up" sort of thing.
IDK, I don't want to sound like I'm fishing for sympathy or whatever.
I just have a wealth of sadness about my brother, at times I wake up wondering if anyone out there could ever really understand me. It's common for siblings of disabled people to develop Bi-Polar disorder, insult to injury.
