NilsFG wrote:I've stopped smoking for more than 4 months now, but I'm still missing and craving the smoke break when working on stuff. Helped my concentration and it relaxed me
e-cig
Yeah I've been thinking about it. Guy in my class got one for the same reason.
I got one because I just really like the act of blowing out smoke. I can't say it works 100% as yet because i've been cutting down and (I hate the phrase) 'vaping' - cut down to two real cigs a day for the past two weeks, had one yesterday and hopefully that'll be my last. Hopefully. My plan is to use the e cig in ever decreasing amounts until i'm 100% nicotine free.
That's the plan anyway
I only have the odd cig on the weekend if I'm drinking now, it makes such a difference
That is encouraging.
I'm now at 40ish hours without a real cigarette. Feel ok but haven't really been tested yet.
How so? I actually spend more time in the Hex alpha tbf...
Priests are pretty much The class. So you just end up playing fucking loads of priests, seeing the same cards and being done over. I admit im not very good at it but still some diversity in the classes I play against would be nice.
One of my flatmates failed the year last year and isn't allowed back to uni so is moving out, he/we need to find someone to fill the room or me and my other mate might have to pay for his rent. He comes back from not being here for a week or so and tells us that this random guy is moving in this evening for like a month who we have no idea who he is, i'm in no mood to be social so might just go hide in the library.
I'm 2 years through a degree i have little interest in and this year looking at the exams i have very little chance of passing and if i do i won't do well. Also i have to write a dissertation in a field of chemistry i don't really care about. Even once/if i get the degree i really don't see myself doing a job relevant to it and have no clue what i want to do, i appreciate a lot of people don't know what they want to do but it's really worrying me atm.
These along with other things: girl i'm seeing being a pain, soon going back home for christmas where i will be bored witless for a month and slowly running out of money have got me tempted to just drive to somewhere in Europe and leave this bullshit behind haha. I'll probably look back at this post in a week or so and realise how its not really all that bad but atm it just feels like a huge cloud is floating above me.
m8son wrote:One of my flatmates failed the year last year and isn't allowed back to uni so is moving out, he/we need to find someone to fill the room or me and my other mate might have to pay for his rent. He comes back from not being here for a week or so and tells us that this random guy is moving in this evening for like a month who we have no idea who he is, i'm in no mood to be social so might just go hide in the library.
At least you've potentially for the room to save some money. Take some time to get to know the random guy sooner rather than later so that you can warm to him a bit before he moves straight in.
m8son wrote:I'm 2 years through a degree i have little interest in and this year looking at the exams i have very little chance of passing and if i do i won't do well. Also i have to write a dissertation in a field of chemistry i don't really care about. Even once/if i get the degree i really don't see myself doing a job relevant to it and have no clue what i want to do, i appreciate a lot of people don't know what they want to do but it's really worrying me atm.
If you're serious, talk to someone at student advice/union about transferring courses if there is something else you'd rather be doing. Wasting money and time on something you're not that into and can't see yourself pursuing is a fruitless endeavour IMO. Plus you may be able to transfer over some of your already accrued course credits to something similar.
Alternatively, give some thought about if Uni is really what you want to be doing, or you're just there to fulfill some imaginery tick box in life.
m8son wrote:These along with other things: girl i'm seeing being a pain
Slack her off, you're too young to worry about women to that extent.
m8son wrote:soon going back home for christmas where i will be bored witless for a month
Download as many books in PDF format as you can and spend the time reading them. I've got a couple of 'trial' book sites I can link you if you're interested.
m8son wrote:slowly running out of money have got me tempted to just drive to somewhere in Europe and leave this bullshit behind haha
Europe is only good as an escape if you've got funds or a job already waiting for you. Cheap though it is over here, it's not necessarily a finance free jolly.
m8son wrote:I'll probably look back at this post in a week or so and realise how its not really all that bad but atm it just feels like a huge cloud is floating above me.
Always lifts spirits for me if I'm feeling like stuff is getting a bit on top
m8son wrote:One of my flatmates failed the year last year and isn't allowed back to uni so is moving out, he/we need to find someone to fill the room or me and my other mate might have to pay for his rent. He comes back from not being here for a week or so and tells us that this random guy is moving in this evening for like a month who we have no idea who he is, i'm in no mood to be social so might just go hide in the library.
Prominently display skins of vanquished foes to dissuade visitors from your house.
m8son wrote:I'm 2 years through a degree i have little interest in and this year looking at the exams i have very little chance of passing and if i do i won't do well. Also i have to write a dissertation in a field of chemistry i don't really care about. Even once/if i get the degree i really don't see myself doing a job relevant to it and have no clue what i want to do, i appreciate a lot of people don't know what they want to do but it's really worrying me atm.
Measure how far you can jump. Is it more than 3 metres? A burgeoning career in long jump may await you.
m8son wrote:These along with other things: girl i'm seeing being a pain,
Is she legitimately beautiful? If so, it may be worth buying a fedora and dedicating each waking moment of your life to her. Perhaps draw her as a sailor moon in an attempt to woo her.
m8son wrote:soon going back home for christmas where i will be bored witless for a month
Nobody is unhappy in Birmingham. Visit the Nature Centre. Leave a balti pie as an offering to the Tony Hancock memorial statue. Gaze in awe at the Rotunda. Visit one of the many JDs in the area.
m8son wrote:and slowly running out of money have got me tempted to just drive to somewhere in Europe and leave this bullshit behind haha.
Kill somebody first to ensure you can never come back and thus think what you might've made of yourself in Europe.
"It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat."
m8son wrote:One of my flatmates failed the year last year and isn't allowed back to uni so is moving out, he/we need to find someone to fill the room or me and my other mate might have to pay for his rent. He comes back from not being here for a week or so and tells us that this random guy is moving in this evening for like a month who we have no idea who he is, i'm in no mood to be social so might just go hide in the library.
I'm 2 years through a degree i have little interest in and this year looking at the exams i have very little chance of passing and if i do i won't do well. Also i have to write a dissertation in a field of chemistry i don't really care about. Even once/if i get the degree i really don't see myself doing a job relevant to it and have no clue what i want to do, i appreciate a lot of people don't know what they want to do but it's really worrying me atm.
These along with other things: girl i'm seeing being a pain, soon going back home for christmas where i will be bored witless for a month and slowly running out of money have got me tempted to just drive to somewhere in Europe and leave this bullshit behind haha. I'll probably look back at this post in a week or so and realise how its not really all that bad but atm it just feels like a huge cloud is floating above me.
i started to get that feeling over the last year and its shit
i hate my course, and cant see me doing anything with music in later life other than produce/dj
i feel like i should just finish it tho cus having a bachelor of science cant hurt + what wub said about ticking the box for sure lol
i kinda worry about what will happen when i do finally leave, but i reckon the scare of suddenly being in the real world with nothing to fall back on will kick my ass in to gear. also ive got mates who are morons with no degree and are on 35k+ a year, so that gives me hope.
but yeah, overall not in the best place right now, constantly doubting everything and just general guilty/anxious feeling over nothing, but it could be cus of how unproductive i am if i actually go out, exercise, do some work etc i feel alot better
i pretty much just answered all my own comments ther but still...
Agent 47 wrote:i need to read some shit, can i have those links wub?
- Nietzsche: The Anti-Christ, Thus Spoke Zarathustra, Beyond Good and Evil.
- Fyodor Dostoyevsky: The Idiot, Crime and Punishment and Notes from Underground
- Franz Kafka: The Metamorphosis, The Trial and Das Schloss and Der Prozess (didn't find the english translation of both titles)
- Aldous Huxley: Brave New World, The Doors of Perception
- George Orwell: 1984
- Albert Camus: The Stranger, The Fall, The Plague and L'Homme Révolté.
- William S. Burroughs: Naked Lunch, Junky and Queer.
- Jack Kerouac: On The Road
- Anthony Burgess - A Clockwork Orange, Bret Easton Ellis - American Psycho, Philip K. Dick - Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep?, Hubert Selby Jr. - Last Exit to Brooklyn, Irvine Welsh - Trainspotting, Ray Bradbury - Fahrenheit 451
- The Game of Thrones books.
Really appreciate your comment wub, i won't go through quoting and replying cos that will take ages. My degree is definitely just to tick a box but i am too far through now to stop imo and if i do manage to pass i think a degree in chemistry will be useful, i think i might go to student services just to see how feasible it is to switch courses. I would much rather do philosophy or psychology but i think it would be pretty shortsighted to swap to either of those. Yeah can see myself doing a lot of reading over christmas, just started reading the myth of sisyphus by camus actually which tbh has made things worse if anything lol. Yeah i realise running away to Europe wouldn't really help but every time i feel like this i get closer and closer to just fucking off, one day i will disappear haha.
Yeah agent its so long having to grow up haha, i'm just so scared of getting to like 50 and realising i have been working some bullshit job for the last 30 years just passing time fuck that.
With all that said i think i will take garethom's advice, i did use to be quite good at long jump and havn't been to a jd in a while.
M8son I realize we've had our differences (my badman style intimidates you) but out to you and good luck. Chemistry sounds like a waste subject, but maybe you can go walter white afterwards. Keep that in mind and you'll succeed
RKM wrote:
when bae hands u the aux mixtape and your squad blunted 9/11 aye lmao
m8son wrote:
Yeah agent its so long having to grow up haha, i'm just so scared of getting to like 50 and realising i have been working some bullshit job for the last 30 years just passing time fuck that.
Well thats Life as far as Im aware just use the money from that shit part of your life to do sick things instead
Its fucking frustrating though...
if i actually go out, exercise, do some work etc i feel alot better
