Harkat wrote:rant:
My own shitty discipline and work ethic has been pissing me off for months and months. It's ruining my life. I constantly disappoint myself. There's been two important projects at school which I just didn't hand in in the last month. About 3 times a week, I pull so called "all-nighters" where I do about 30-90 mins work at 4AM and idly sit like a zombie on dsf or reddit the rest of the time, not having fun, just distracting myself and feeling like shit. Right now there's this important huge project which was supposed to be handed in early december which I was again supposed to hand in "this week". I "dedicated" all day and night to doing this shit and barely even looked at the fuckin document. It's 2AM now and I'm quitting cos I'm on two hours of sleep.
I've been sitting still in this fucking chair reloading reddit and dsf for about 13 hours straight now, with short breaks for dinner etc. I don't go away to do anything concentrated and fun like videogames, watching films, being with friends, going to the gym or producing music, I just constantly distract myself with an infinite string of internet bullshit. I've been doing it for months now and it's making my life feel completely shit. It's the fuckin christmas holidays now too ffs. Theres an electric christmas star hanging in my window right now and I'm just using my time in pretty much the worst possible way. I'm so fuckin frustrated with myself. I can't keep living like this, it's poisoning my fuckin soul.
Fuck fuck fuck
This is pretty grim dude. You might have to do something rash. Like turn off your internet. Like cancel the shit. Some people can't manage a good thing. Dsf is a good thing. It's jokes, funny people here, knowledgable people, mind expanding people (mind shrinking people, too). But seriously, if it is fucking things up, and you CAN'T stop? Go to the root, shut it down.
You could also post a pic of a single pubic hair, that'd get you banned for a good 30 days...